Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Sometimes Life Sucks

Ya know...I am sitting here watching TV with Honeybear, and something has been on my mind lately..not really sure why...but life can really kick you in the butt sometimes. I was thinking about that today driving home. I gues I haven't really thought about it alot but today..I dunno...maybe it's b/c we have a new little baby at the preschool...or maybe it is just that time for it to crop up with me again...let me explain....

First of all, most of you who know me knows my infertility struggles over the years. I have PCOS...yada yada, can't have kids...been trying for 8 years. I am not making light of that by any means, but it takes alot out of me to go in great detail about it. I wrote a blog about it on MySpace awhile back..maybe I could post it on here. I don't really talk about it much, b/c I try not to think about it. Plus, I don't want people's pity. I don't like people feeling sorry for me. Anyway, I've had tests done and spent lots of money, or as much money as we have had to spend for that. Here's my point: why is it that people, like us, would do just about anything to have a baby, natural or adopted, but it never seems to work out? I work at a preschool, so maybe I hear more sad stories than some, but it just sucks sometimes. Like the school, we have a little baby who is staying with his family. His mom is in jail, she's had two other kids that she has let other people have, and the baby she will dump off on people for awhile and then go and take him back...What's up with that? And of course, I know, there are people who would tell me "Well, if you want a baby bad enough, then do whatever it takes" We have!! I mean, we haven't sunk every bit of our money into it, we have to have money to live, but believe we when I tell you, that we have put alot of time, energy, and resources into it. But my point is: why does it seem so easy for the people who don't really want to get pregnant to get that way, and others who struggle with infertility have to suffer?

So, there's point number one of why life sucks. Of course, I could name off lots of other things...let's see...why do some people get to throw away money like it's toilet paper? There are so many professional athletes that make more money in one year than most people ever will in an entire lifetime. I know they have trained and practiced and are very dedicated to their career, but come on...$25 million a that really necessary when there are children and other people struggling...people who's electricity and water gets shut off b/c they don't have enough money...people starving and getting kicked out of homes...I realize that happens to some people thru faults of their own, but it's ridiculous when there are hurting people out there.

Hhmm...what else?? Oh about the people who have to suffer from cancer and other terminal and/or painful diseases? They beg for relief and nothing happens...especially little children and babies...they don't even understand what is happening to their bodies, and they have to suffer...why does that happen? Of people who are raped and/or abused...why does that happen?? They are begging for help and help never comes. Those people are then scarred for life..some of them never get over it...why does that happen to them? And don't say it makes them stronger...a baby getting hurt doesn't make that baby a stronger person...that's some crap....

Sometimes life just sucks in general. I know it can't be roses and candy all the time; however, some people never seem to get a break. Something bad happens to them, they recover from that (barely), and then wham!! Something happens again.

Why am I even writing this? I dunno....maybe I just feel like having a pity party today...I have them ever so often. Or maybe I'm just tired of seeing people having to deal with crap in their lives. Life has sucked them down so much that they walk around depressed, in a haze, or they never the rainbow in the sky, so to speak. One day...just one day...I'd like to see where everyone has everything going their problems, no worries, no concerns...I know that will never happen, but it's a nice thought, huh?

This is a totally rambling blog, I know, but maybe someone can make some sense out of it. So, let me send you off with this: HAVE A GREAT DAY!!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Back Again...Bout Time I Know :)

Okay, okay...I know I haven't written in sue me. I have a busy life (well, maybe I'm just being lazy). I think I am just going to ramble today...I have a couple of things I can write about.

First, football season has started (this is for you, Tysha!!) Of course, I am a Cowboys fan...I inherited my love from my husband. I don't scream and act the fool as much Charles does, and I like to pick on him when the Boys mess up, but I love them all the same. I hope they go to the Super Bowl and win the whole thing!!! And, Tom Brady being hurt...that just makes my football life worth it for the rest of the season :) I think he is pompous and full of himself...I hate it that he is hurt...well, actually not general, I hate to see people hurting, but I don't like the man, and I think it's great that the Patriots are finally getting their's. My sister and I go to our high school football games on Fridays, and when we go to those...whoo...there we do act crazy....screaming, jumping up and down...the whole nine yards. There is just something I love about the aggressiveness of football. It's so physical, and hard hitting. A place where guys can talk smack to each other and either back it up or get knocked down. There ain't nothing better to see than a "whoo hit"...and this year, we are keeping up with the Razorback alumi, such as Felix Jones as a Dallas Cowboy, Darren McFadden as an Oakland Raider, and Payton Hillis as a Denver Bronco. Charles said he wants to become a general football fan, and that's fine with me. I can watch any doesn't bother me. I try to keep up with the Houston Texans too..and I hope they do well...I don't really watch those games, but I will if I can catch one.

Next to talk about...Sarah Palin as Vice President candidate with John McCain. If you know me, you know I am a John McCain fan. Yes, yes...I am willing to get "boos" for saying that, but I don't care. I will also tell you that I voted for George W. Bush, not once, but twice (cringes and waits for the shouts and objects thrown). I don't agree with everything he has done, but his moral standards are the best. Same with McCain/Palin. And, since I am all for women in power, the idea of a female Vice President is a great thing to me. I wouldn't have voted for Hilary, b/c I didn't agree with her views, but the idea of a woman President in general sounds like a good idea. A woman Vice President/President can't be any worse for the country. Another thing I really like about Palin is her stance on abstinence. Yes, I know, her daughter is pregnant. But they are willing to face up to the consequences and not shuffle her off to an abortion clinic, which if you know me, then you are know I am majorly against. Besides, even if you teach abstinence, you can't watch your kids 24/7, especially when they get to be teenagers. Sarah Palin is a woman to be admired. I mean, she is running for VP, is governor of Alaska, has a baby to take care that has Down's Syndrome, her daughter is pregnant, and she still has time for her family. Sounds alot better than some guys I know. The media is dogging her big time...why is that? Is it b/c she is a woman, or a Republican, or maybe they think her views are too conservative. Well, I say good for her, on all accounts. God knows we need a little "conservative" in this day and age....actually a lot of conservative. Maybe that's a blog for another day..."Holly's Conservative Views" :) Anyway, to wrap us this segment, go JOHN MCCAIN AND SARAH PALIN.

And let's wrap up the topic for the day...did anyone see on the news where some scientists are trying to recreate the Big Bang theory...ya know, if that is actually how the Earth formed, then there might be a cause for spending that billions of dollars, but since any sane person knows the Earth came from the Good Lord Above, then someone needs to tell said scientists that they are wasting time, energy, and money. I'm pretty sure when the final experiment takes place, God is gonna strike them dead...D E A D!! There are certain things a person shouldn't mess with and God's ways are one of them. Here is a link to the story, if you haven't seen it on the news.;_ylt=ApybkulrLEeedM8hvWik.4us0NUE

Now, I'm not an especially smart person, but any smart person knows this is WRONG!!

Well, gotta go do something with a squalling to you later :)