Sometimes Life Sucks

Ya know...I am sitting here watching TV with Honeybear, and something has been on my mind lately..not really sure why...but life can really kick you in the butt sometimes. I was thinking about that today driving home. I gues I haven't really thought about it alot but today..I dunno...maybe it's b/c we have a new little baby at the preschool...or maybe it is just that time for it to crop up with me again...let me explain....


First of all, most of you who know me knows my infertility struggles over the years. I have PCOS...yada yada, can't have kids...been trying for 8 years. I am not making light of that by any means, but it takes alot out of me to go in great detail about it. I wrote a blog about it on MySpace awhile back..maybe I could post it on here. I don't really talk about it much, b/c I try not to think about it. Plus, I don't want people's pity. I don't like people feeling sorry for me. Anyway, I've had tests done and spent lots of money, or as much money as we have had to spend for that. Here's my point: why is it that people, like us, would do just about anything to have a baby, natural or adopted, but it never seems to work out? I work at a preschool, so maybe I hear more sad stories than some, but it just sucks sometimes. Like now...at the school, we have a little baby who is staying with his family. His mom is in jail, she's had two other kids that she has let other people have, and the baby she will dump off on people for awhile and then go and take him back...What's up with that? And of course, I know, there are people who would tell me "Well, if you want a baby bad enough, then do whatever it takes" We have!! I mean, we haven't sunk every bit of our money into it, we have to have money to live, but believe we when I tell you, that we have put alot of time, energy, and resources into it. But my point is: why does it seem so easy for the people who don't really want to get pregnant to get that way, and others who struggle with infertility have to suffer?


So, there's point number one of why life sucks. Of course, I could name off lots of other things...let's see...why do some people get to throw away money like it's toilet paper? There are so many professional athletes that make more money in one year than most people ever will in an entire lifetime. I know they have trained and practiced and are very dedicated to their career, but come on...$25 million a year...is that really necessary when there are children and other people struggling...people who's electricity and water gets shut off b/c they don't have enough money...people starving and getting kicked out of homes...I realize that happens to some people thru faults of their own, but it's ridiculous when there are hurting people out there.


Hhmm...what else?? Oh yea...how about the people who have to suffer from cancer and other terminal and/or painful diseases? They beg for relief and nothing happens...especially little children and babies...they don't even understand what is happening to their bodies, and they have to suffer...why does that happen? Of people who are raped and/or abused...why does that happen?? They are begging for help and help never comes. Those people are then scarred for life..some of them never get over it...why does that happen to them? And don't say it makes them stronger...a baby getting hurt doesn't make that baby a stronger person...that's some crap....

Sometimes life just sucks in general. I know it can't be roses and candy all the time; however, some people never seem to get a break. Something bad happens to them, they recover from that (barely), and then wham!! Something happens again.

Why am I even writing this? I dunno....maybe I just feel like having a pity party today...I have them ever so often. Or maybe I'm just tired of seeing people having to deal with crap in their lives. Life has sucked them down so much that they walk around depressed, in a haze, or they never the rainbow in the sky, so to speak. One day...just one day...I'd like to see where everyone has everything going their way...no problems, no worries, no concerns...I know that will never happen, but it's a nice thought, huh?

This is a totally rambling blog, I know, but maybe someone can make some sense out of it. So, let me send you off with this: HAVE A GREAT DAY!!

Back Again...Bout Time I Know :)

Okay, okay...I know I haven't written in forever...so sue me. I have a busy life (well, maybe I'm just being lazy). I think I am just going to ramble today...I have a couple of things I can write about.



First, football season has started (this is for you, Tysha!!) Of course, I am a Cowboys fan...I inherited my love from my husband. I don't scream and act the fool as much Charles does, and I like to pick on him when the Boys mess up, but I love them all the same. I hope they go to the Super Bowl and win the whole thing!!! And, Tom Brady being hurt...that just makes my football life worth it for the rest of the season :) I think he is pompous and full of himself...I hate it that he is hurt...well, actually not really...in general, I hate to see people hurting, but I don't like the man, and I think it's great that the Patriots are finally getting their's. My sister and I go to our high school football games on Fridays, and when we go to those...whoo...there we do act crazy....screaming, jumping up and down...the whole nine yards. There is just something I love about the aggressiveness of football. It's so physical, and hard hitting. A place where guys can talk smack to each other and either back it up or get knocked down. There ain't nothing better to see than a "whoo hit"...and this year, we are keeping up with the Razorback alumi, such as Felix Jones as a Dallas Cowboy, Darren McFadden as an Oakland Raider, and Payton Hillis as a Denver Bronco. Charles said he wants to become a general football fan, and that's fine with me. I can watch any game...it doesn't bother me. I try to keep up with the Houston Texans too..and I hope they do well...I don't really watch those games, but I will if I can catch one.



Next to talk about...Sarah Palin as Vice President candidate with John McCain. If you know me, you know I am a John McCain fan. Yes, yes...I am willing to get "boos" for saying that, but I don't care. I will also tell you that I voted for George W. Bush, not once, but twice (cringes and waits for the shouts and objects thrown). I don't agree with everything he has done, but his moral standards are the best. Same with McCain/Palin. And, since I am all for women in power, the idea of a female Vice President is a great thing to me. I wouldn't have voted for Hilary, b/c I didn't agree with her views, but the idea of a woman President in general sounds like a good idea. A woman Vice President/President can't be any worse for the country. Another thing I really like about Palin is her stance on abstinence. Yes, I know, her daughter is pregnant. But they are willing to face up to the consequences and not shuffle her off to an abortion clinic, which if you know me, then you are know I am majorly against. Besides, even if you teach abstinence, you can't watch your kids 24/7, especially when they get to be teenagers. Sarah Palin is a woman to be admired. I mean, she is running for VP, is governor of Alaska, has a baby to take care that has Down's Syndrome, her daughter is pregnant, and she still has time for her family. Sounds alot better than some guys I know. The media is dogging her big time...why is that? Is it b/c she is a woman, or a Republican, or maybe they think her views are too conservative. Well, I say good for her, on all accounts. God knows we need a little "conservative" in this day and age....actually a lot of conservative. Maybe that's a blog for another day..."Holly's Conservative Views" :) Anyway, to wrap us this segment, go JOHN MCCAIN AND SARAH PALIN.

And let's see...to wrap up the topic for the day...did anyone see on the news where some scientists are trying to recreate the Big Bang theory...ya know, if that is actually how the Earth formed, then there might be a cause for spending that billions of dollars, but since any sane person knows the Earth came from the Good Lord Above, then someone needs to tell said scientists that they are wasting time, energy, and money. I'm pretty sure when the final experiment takes place, God is gonna strike them dead...D E A D!! There are certain things a person shouldn't mess with and God's ways are one of them. Here is a link to the story, if you haven't seen it on the news.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080910/ap_on_sc/big_bang;_ylt=ApybkulrLEeedM8hvWik.4us0NUE

Now, I'm not an especially smart person, but any smart person knows this is WRONG!!

Well, gotta go do something with a squalling baby...talk to you later :)

The Olympics...

Back again...and this time to talk about the Olympics. They are wrapping up tonite, the closing ceremonies is on NBC. I've watched quite a bit of the events this year, and they have made me quite proud to live in the good ole U.S. of A. First off...we've won the medal count. Yea yea...China beat us in gold medals, but we beat them in overall count. That may sound a little childish, but there were a lot of people saying that China was going to "sweep the medal count"...wrong!!

And of course, how could I write this without mentioning Michael Phelps? I mean...8 gold medals in one Olympics...a feat not easily accomplished. And from a man who was made fun of in school because of his looks and ADHD. Who has the last laugh now? Somehow I'm thinking that Michael will have lots of people wanting to be his "friend"...I'm also pretty sure they'll get shot down. Ha!

Michael isn't the only name I could name off. There is also: Shawn Johnson, Nastia Liukin, the Men/Women Beach Volleyball team, the Men's basketball "redeemed team", and all the track and field people (don't know all their names), and those are just a few. The US sent over 600 athletes to the Olympics. My point is: be proud. Most of us will never meet the Olympians, but we should still have pride in them for representing our country. I was watching the Olympics a few days ago, and my niece was here and said how boring it was. I don't think so...now granted, there are some events I don't care to watch, but the people that participate in the sports deserve a ton of respect, even the synchronized swimmers (don't laugh...you try to do what they do). They give up their lives for months at a time and sleep, eat, and breathe whatever sport it is they are training for. Their families and life outside of training pays the prices, but they do it anyway, for the honor, respect, and pride they want to bring to the United States of America. How can we not feel a stirring in our hearts for these modern day Olympians?

There was even a few times during the games where I felt tears come to my eyes...I didn't cry but it definately made me feel something great. I love watching the medal ceremonies and singing the National Anthem (thank goodness no one else hears me). There were many athletes who went to the Games knowing they would not win a medal, but they go anyway to try and never give up. It should be a lesson we can all learn from.

So...what's my point, you ask? Be proud. You might think this is a corny blog, but I could care less. I'm hoping you take a little more pride in your country, even if you disagree with the politics and government things going on...forget about that for just a little bit and be proud to call yourself an American.

I was going to post some links to some of the races, from the Youtube website but Youtube can't post the actual races, and I'm too lazy to look anywhere else :) My personal favorite is the Men's Swimming 4x100m Relay match where Jason Lezak pulls off the race of the century. Have a stupendous, wondrous, glorious day!!

The more I think about this exchange student stuff...

the more it bothers me....I realize that Delight School needs to be saved and everything, but the people getting exchange students just for the money...well, that just irritates me to no great end. Charles and I have been doing this for 4 years now, and we've never done it to help out the school. I mean, I know that our exchange students count in the school count, but that's not why we do it, and never will be why we do it. Some people see to think that Charles and I have gotten things in return for hosting exchange students; that is not true, you can think what you want. In my opinion, you should get an exchange student because you want to, not for any other reason. And the company that has offered money...well, that is ridiculous. and for all of those who don't know...IT IS ILLEGAL TO PAY HOST FAMILIES. The way that the company, which is called AISE for those who don't know, is getting away with paying people is by finding a loophole in the rules, and that's the truth. There are people in Delight who have taken an exchange student, or more than one, just for the money. There are people who got them last year that didn't have any business getting one, and they are at it again. I mean, $1000 sounds pretty good...too bad that money doesn't last as long as the exchange student is living in their house. It's really not that much in the long run. Some of these poor kids are coming over here and living in houses that I wouldn't want my dog to live in. Would you want your child to go live with someone in a foreign country simply because that person was paid to take your child? I don't think you would.

And what's going to happen when getting all these exchange students still doesn't help the school to stay open? Will all those host families who only done it for the money decide to kick the kids out? Don't say it won't happen, because it will with some people. I've made some people mad with my opinions...and you know what....I really don't care. If someone wants to get an exchange student, that's one thing, but getting one for money is wrong, wrong, wrong. There are some people who have gotten 4...FOUR!!! That's four thousand dollars, even though the woman in charge said they wouldn't place more than two kids in a home...that's a big fat lie!! Me and Charles have really a three bedroom house, so maybe we should sign up to get 4 and we could put two in each bedroom...who cares if they like it or if they are comfortable or if they're happy, right? I mean, all to save the school, that should be all that matters....at least if you listen to what the people around here say. AISE isn't even going to the host family's house to see if it's a safe place to be...boy, I'd really want my child going thru a company like that to find a place for them to live in a foreign country. You could be sending your child to live in nasty roach infested house for all AISE knows.

So...now that I have "gently" told my thoughts on the exchange student thing..maybe I can make some enemies and see how I can stir it up...haha...

Let me know your thoughts on the subject, if you have any :) I might like this blog thing after all...

Hhhmm...what to say....

Hey!
Well, I am going to try out this blogging thing. Some of our exchange students have had one (Salla and Raz) so I thought I'd give it a whirl. It will be a work in progress cuz I don't really know what I'm doing or how long I'll write, since I get tired of things pretty quickly :)

What to write about first....hhhmm....let's see...today was a work day for me. It was pretty sucky cuz Ms. Janet was in a pissy mood. That seems to happen alot these days the closer we get to Opening Day of the preschool. The school is slowly coming together. It looks far better than it did a week ago. Open House is tomorrow so it's pretty much go time at Southside CDC (yea, I said it...Southside!!) We be the gangsta preschool at Prescott :P

We are settling into the exchange student life once again. It's been a little rocky so far...we've had to deal with a smoking issue. And if a certain person gives Raz cigarettes ever again, I will beat said person myself. I am usually pretty forgiving, but Sunday night and Monday I was pretty hot. I don't understand why our rules were broken when everyone around us knows how we feel about certain issues and how much trouble we had with our last boy exchange student. Now, I know you can't compare one to another, and I have tried not to. We just let the problems go on so long last time and I won't do it this year. It causes too much stress. So, I realize that some of my family thinks I'm a little harsh, but I don't think so. If all you do is give them a little pat on the hand, then they are going to assume they can get away with it again. That goes for all kinds, I think, not just exchange students..but that is a blog for another day :)
Anyway, we have done okay since then. The trouble he's in is only for two weeks, so he will live.
If all we have to deal with is the smoking disturbance, then we'll be good to go for the year.
Well enough of that...even though I think I'll write my opinion on all of these folks getting exchange students thru the $1000 Company, as I call it, on another blog pretty quickly. It should fire some people up, but...yeah...I don't think I care...hehehe...I like to cause a commotion.
As I wrap up my first ever blog, I just want to say that I hope to be honest when I write. I usually write stuff better than I can talk, when it comes down to it. Maybe I'm just not very brave face-to-face, I dunno. I'm trying to figure out how many people I will let know I'm writing a blog. Of course, maybe hardly anyone will care and nobody will read it anyway. Well, Charles would, just to be nosy :D I hope to write lots of stuff on here about all kinds of things. What I write is MY feelings, so keep that in mind. If you don't like what I write...then, don't read what I write cuz this is MY blog, not yours :)
That's all for now. Kinda boring for a first one, but I'll get into it more. I have ideas on stuff to write about so stay tuned.