Monday, May 25, 2009

Monday May 25, 2009....Havin Fun and Workin Hard!

Hey All!!

I hope everyone is having a nice Memorial Day. My vacation has officially started as of last Friday. I am off work the whole summer until school starts back up in August :) Go Me!! I have a couple things planned this summer. One is coming up in a couple weeks, we are taking our youth group to Branson for 3 days, starting June 8th. I am really looking forward to it. Then, in July, my sister, her daughter (my niece), and I are going to the American Idol concert in Little Rock!! Woo! I am excited about it. Since our new Idol is from my home state of Arkansas, it makes it even better.

Okay, well, onward I go. I lost 1.2 lbs this week, which is great. Last Saturday night, we went and ate Chinese food. I only ate 1 plate of food, which is an accomplishment for me. So, I have been guzzling water all this week to get rid of all the sodium I ate. On Saturday, we went to my sister's and ate steak and watched a movie. So now I have to work on getting rid of all that food.

However, we made a new investment this week. We bought a Wii!! It is so so so much fun. I just have a few games right now, but they are very enjoyable. One game that we got is called EA Sports Active. There is one good word to explain the game: OOOWWWW!!! There is a 30 Day Challenge on there that you can choose to do. I have done Day 2 so far, and it has kicked my butt....seriously. Today is thankfully a "rest" day. My leg and butt muscles are so sore, I am walking around like Frankenstein and groaning like an old lady every time I have to get up. The workout is a really good one, though. It is a different workout everyday, so it doesn't get boring. You get to design your own person, and I made mine kinda look like me, chubby and all LOL. The trainer on the TV demonstrates all the exercises before you do them so you know what to do, and the trainer also lets you know when you aren't doing a workout correctly. I have griped at her (you can pick a male or female trainer), flipped her off (yes I did...bad me...hehehe), and called her numerous names (nothing x-rated). However, I continue doing the exercises anyway, even when I whine and say I can't do it.'s torture, but I almost like doing it. With me hurting so badly, I know its working. I realize I may not lose much weight this week, but hopefully next week will show a good loss. I have heard that when you start a new workout, the first week, you might not lose much b/c your body is getting used to the routine. I sweat like a pig and I love it. I really feel like I am accomplishing something good. I used to want a Wii Fit, but I think the Sports Active game is much more cardio-intensive. It comes with a leg strap to hold the nunchuck, and a resistance band to do some of the exercises. Thats all you need. If you have a Wii Fit board, you can use it for some of the exercises, but its not necessary. You put your weight, height, and gender it too. I guess that is where it bases your workouts from. The calories you burn are on the screen so you know how many you've burned (even though I've heard you actually burn more than it says). My 2 workouts so far have been 20 and 30 minutes, so it isn't some little namby pamby joyride. And that is where the inspiration for the title of my blog comes from today, because the Sports Active game is hard work, but its fun too!

So now I am off for the rest of the day to play the Wii :) Hope you have a grand and glorious day!!

Starting Weight: 233 lbs
Current Weight: 194.8 lbs

Saturday, May 16, 2009

May 16th 2009...I'll Take That!

Geez Louise! I have been so bad the last three weeks. I fully admit that LOL. I have been pretty busy, and just plain lazy too I will say. Its like when I have time to actually sit down and write, I just wanna relax and do as little as possible. Today, I AM getting off my butt and doing something...LOL.

Anyway, I guess I'll start with my weigh in this morning first. On May 2nd, I had lost .8 oz. Not the number I really wanted to see but it was better than a gain. Last Saturday, I gained 2 lbs!! Yes, gained. Now, there was a reason for this that I won't go into (and it wasn't because of overeating), but its a little too TMI. Most of you ladies can probably guess though :)

So today, I got on the scale and I had lost 3.8 lbs. Yeeaa!! I am totally happy with that. Its means I lost the 2 lbs from last week and another 1.8 lbs. So its a 37 lb loss for me so far, since late January. I know I am doing really well, it just seems longer than that. Some days are still a huge struggle for me not to eat down the house, last week especially. Sometimes I still think about a food that I love to eat, and am disappointed that I can't really have it any more, unless I want to gain some of my weight back the next week. Pizza, for instance, is something I love. I could have a piece or so, but really...who wants to eat just one measly slice of pizza?? Not me LOL! And since I don't like salad, one piece of pizza and a salad wouldn't cut it for me either. So, pizza is one of those foods that I just have to eat and take a gain (probably) the next week, or stay away from it altogether. Some days I just wanna buy a big back of Doritos and eat every stinkin chip. I have to almost physically force myself out of the store without a bag, but I do it. However, I know this is just the life I will have to live if I want to be healthy and be at a healthier weight. Some people can shove whatever they want in their mouth and not gain weight...I will never be one of those people. I just have to accept it, deal with it, and move on. Some days I resent it, but most days I am okay with it.

We finally started our Foster Parenting classes; they are actually called Foster PRIDE. We have been to 2 classes so far. Not really learned anything productive, but the classes aren't so bad. We have to turn in alot of info, so I am working on all that: we have to have physicals, pet immunizations, floor plans, escape plans for the house in case of fire and where to go for a tornado, safety features added to the house (smoke alarms, fire extinguisher, outlet covers, etc), car insurance, house insurance, drivers license...and the list goes on. We have til the end of the classes to get it done, which is the last day of June. We are going to have alot of responsibility. Its almost scary to think about having kids in the house all of a sudden. I know how to take care of kids, but to have all the responsibility of caring for them is kind of daunting. I am ready for it, but its a little nerve wracking to think about.

Well, I'll leave it at that for the day. Hopefully, I will be back next week with another loss. I will put 2 recipes on here today, since I have been lacking in that as well.

Starting Weight: 233 lbs
Current Weight: 196 lbs.

Fudgy Fruit Dip

1/3 cup fat-free sugar-free hot fudge topping
1/3 cup fat-free vanilla yogurt
1-1/2 teaspoons orange juice concentrate
Fresh strawberries

1. In a bowl, combine fudge topping, yogurt and orange juice concentrate. Cover and refrigerate for at least 30 minutes. Serve with strawberries.

NI: One serving (2 tbsp) equal: (1 WW pt)
67 calories
1 g fat
1 g saturated fat
1 mg cholesterol
32 mg sodium
15 g carbohydrate
1 g fiber
1 g protein

** I have not tried this yet, but it sounds ever so tasty!! And since you can now get fresh strawberries, I figured this would be a good one to try.

Southwest Lasagna Rolls

1 can (15 oz) fat-free vegetarian chili
1 carton (15 oz) reduced fat-ricotta cheese
1 cup (4 oz) shredded reduced-fat Mexican cheese blend
1 can (4 oz) chopped green chilies
1 teaspoon taco seasoning
1/4 teaspoon salt
8 lasagna noodles, cooked and drained
1 jar (16 oz) salsa

1. In a large bowl, combine the chili, cheeses, chilies, taco seasoning and salt. Spread about 1/2 cup on each noodle; carefully roll up. Place seam side down in big enough baking dish to fit all the rolls, coated with cooking spray.
2. Cover and bake at 350 for 25 minutes. Uncover; top with salsa. Bake 10 minutes longer or until heated through.

NI: 1 lasagna roll: (5 WW pts)
259 calories
6 g fat
3 g saturated fat
23 mg cholesterol
648 mg sodium
31 g carbohydrate
6 g fiber
15 g protein

** I have made these, and they are pretty tasty. This is a vegetarian meal, so it could also save you from having to buy meat for one of your meals at home :)

Monday, April 27, 2009

April 27, 2009.....I'm In Onederland!!

Hey all!

Its been a couple of weeks I know, but the week before last I was just plain lazy, and this past weekend I have been really busy.
Alrighty, so I worked hard last week, and this week it paid off. I lost 3.6 lbs, which put me below 200 lbs!!! I have lost 35 lbs total, since starting my weight loss attempt. I will confess and tell you that the week of Easter I gained .6 oz...hehehe.

So, I had to drop down 2 pts, which puts me at 24. I totally don't think this will be a problem for me, since last week I didn't eat all my points. For some reason, every time I tried to eat meat, it made me feel sick. Also, with my sinuses draining, that also makes me feel kinda sick to my stomach. Hopefully, this week will be better, but I think I will be okay with 24 pts.

My mom and sister have decided to give WW a try. I made them copies of all my stuff, and they seem to like it. My mom lost 3 lbs in about 5 days, and my sister lost 5 lbs in a week!! Go them!!

One bad side affect with Charles seems to be this: now whenever he eats a large meal, his gallbladder hurts. It has happened 3 times in the past month. Before that, it has never hurt. Everytime it hurt was when he overate: fried catfish and french fries, Easter, and yesterday at a big meal we had at church. Now, my gallbladder used to hurt me, but since starting WW, it has only hurt maybe once or twice which is great for me. I think Charles' problem is that he has lost the weight SO fast. I mean, he has lost 60 lbs in 3 months. That is ALOT of weight to lose in such a short amount of time. Now, I know that it isn't good to pig out on meals, but my personal motto is that it doesn't hurt to cut loose every now and again as long as you have the control to get back on the wagon, and we have been able to do that. I would hate for Charles never to be able to cut himself a little slack on holidays. My hope is that eventually his brain will catch up with his body, and he'll be able to eat on holidays again. We don't have insurance and if Charles has to take off work, it would devastate our finances. So...I am hoping my theory is correct.

Now, still depressing mood: I still can't fit into size 16 jeans. I mean, come on, I am under 200 lbs, and I've lost 35 lbs, but still the 16s aren't comfy. Ggrrr...its b/c my belly isn't shrinking as fast as other parts of me. I know belly fat is the last to go, but it will be really nice to fit into some smaller clothes. My current pants are too big, but 16s aren't small enough...sigh...oh well, at least the 18s are too big; thats a good thing at least.

Okay, well thats all for now. I am continuing my lazy streak this week, and not posting a recipe. I am not feeling too chirpy still (Charles' gallbladder attack last night made ME tired), and I feel a little drug out. I will continue my recipe posting next week. Sorry.

Starting Weight: 233 lbs
Current Weight: 198 lbs

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Saturday, April 11th....Are You Sure??

Hi All!! Hope everyone is having a great (and blessed) Easter weekend. I certainly started the weekend off in a good way when I got on the scales this morning, and saw a 4.8 lb loss!! Yep, you are reading that right, 4.8 lbs gone. How this happened, I don't even know. I only walked twice this week, and my little fried catfish supper last Saturday...well, I weighed myself two or three times, and waited a coupe of minutes between each weigh-in, so I am saying that its correct. I was just surprised to see that much of a loss. I was expecting at most 1-2 lbs, and would have been happy with that. I really don't know why I lost so much this week. I am definately at the stage where I should only be losing 1-2 lbs a week, max. We have been on WW now for almost 3 months. Now, I ain't complaining, it just seems unreal to be able to drop that much in a week. I am just gonna except it and move on.

I have another theory on why I lost that much. I think the Good Lord knows I am gonna throw down on some food tomorrow for Easter, and maybe he let me lose alot this week cuz he knows I am gonna gain some of that back next week...hehehe. My mom wanted to have grilled hamburgers for Easter...GRILLED HAMBURGERS!! I was like "Are you kidding me???" Then, I felt bad for whining cuz my mom cooks most of the food for the holidays, so I told her that if she really wanted to do hamburgers, I'd be okay with it. However, she went ahead and decided on REAL food (thank goodness). That means: ham, chicken and dumplings, chicken and dressing, mashed potatoes, green beans, corn, pecan pie, chocolate pie, cheesecake...sigh...and the list goes on. How am I going to avoid falling into this evil pit of food, you ask?? Well........I'M NOT!! Easter is one of the few days of the years I am gonna eat whatever I want. I am going to try, TRY, to not totally go overboard. I am definately gonna have me a piece of good ole cheesecake mouth is watering just thinking about it. Yummy!! After we eat, the kids will hunt Easter eggs. All of my nieces and nephews are prolly actually too old to hunt egss, but who really cares? I think think the Easter Egg Police will come to the house and arrest them. I love dying Easter eggs, even though we don't have any kiddos, and my mom dyes some too. The kids like to hunt them and we like to dye them, its a win-win situation. So next week, if I don't gain any weight, I will be extremely happy. It won't bother me not to lose weight, I won't even care too much if I gain a little, but not more than a pound. I am definately gonna have to exercise more next week to help work off that food.

My husband is on his way this week to a 50 lb weight loss. He is gonna weigh in tomorrow morning instead of Monday afternoon. I told him it would be best to weigh in before eating all that food :) If he gets to a 50 lb loss, he said he is gonna enjoy a piece of pecan pie. Somehow I am thinking even if he doesn't lose 50, he will still eat some pie LOL.

So, now with me losing that much, I have lost a total of 32 lbs!! However, I can still not really tell I have lost when I look at myself in the mirror. And I still haven't moved down a pants size. I can fit into the next sized down jeans, which are 16s for me, but they aren't comfy yet. That is kind of disappointing. There is my thoughts on that. I am currently wearing 18s, but I think most of them are 18 stretch jeans. So I might have actually been in a bigger size jeans if they would have been just regular fitted jeans, and not stretch jeans (and no, I don't mean they have stretchy elastic. I'm not that old...yet). However, the day I can comfortably fit into some 16s will be a happy day indeed. I actually think I need to lose about 10 lbs more to fit into them well. I am waiting anxiously for that day :)

I will soon be moving down 2 more pts....gah....I realize its necessary to keep losing the weight, but just the thought of its hard. I know I thought that too, when I went down to my current 26 pts, so I am hoping to adjust just as well with 24 pts. I need to lose 2 more pounds to get to 24 lbs a day. That will put me below 200 lbs!! That will be a great GREAT day indeed. Do you know how long its been since I've been below 200 lbs??? ...................................Well, I don't either but its been a very long time. I would say at least 6-7 years. I got close a couple of years ago when I was taking Adapex (bad me, I know), but I never got there, and of course, after I stopped taking the pills, I gained back all the weight I lost and then some. This time around, I am doing it the healthy, and long lasting way. Sometimes I still have a hard time wrapping my brain around the idea that I won't be able to eat all my beloved junk food all the time like I used to, but I know I will be able to resist my trigger foods, and just treat myself occasionally. I am totally okay with that, as long as I will have a decent looking body and a healthy body :)

I wanna give a shout out to my sister, Dana. She is doing LA Weight Loss, and doing fantastic!! She has a blog on here too. Its called "My Weight Loss Story". You can see it under my list of followed blogs, if you wanna check it out. We are actually close to the same size now, so we can look hot together!! Hehehehe. We're gonna have a Prom when we lose all our weight. Its Prom time here, and we've been talking about having a Prom of our own! LOL. Its a nice though anyway. I would love to dress up in a nice skinny, formal dress.

I bought a new cookbook at Wal-Mart. Its not a WW cookbook, but it is a healthy cookbook and it has all the nutritional info with the recipes so I can still figure out my points. It has some good recipes in it, and I'll be trying them out soon. I'll let you know how it goes. Also, I am looking into buying a (or some) workout DVDs for cardio, so if anyone knows some good ones, let me know. I am kind of interested in Jillian Micheal's 30 Day Shred, but she scares me on The Biggest Loser, LOL, so I am thinkin she will scare me on the DVD too. I have heard some good things about her DVD, but also that she kicks your butt, so if anyone has any thoughts about that one, or any other good one, please let me know. I know there is someone's blog I am following that is doing the 30 Day Shred, so I have been checking her blog to see how she is making out.

Starting Weight: 233 lbs
Current Weight: 201 lbs

BBQ Beef Cups

1 cup diced onion
1 lb extra lean ground beef
1/2 cup bbq sauce
1 can diced potatoes, drained
1/2 tsp black pepper
1/2 tsp chili powder
16 Pillsbury Biscuits, reduced fat if possible
1 cup Fat Free shredded cheddar cheese

Preheat oven to 400. Cook beef and onion, until beef is browned. Add bbq sauce, potatoes, pepper, and chili powder. Cook until hot. Stir in the cheese and remove from heat. Spray a muffin tin with cooking spray. Flatten each biscuit with the palm of your hand and place each biscuit into a well of the muffin tin. Place 1/4 cup of the meat mixture into each biscuit. Bake for approximately 15 minutes.

Pts per serving:3 pt/muffin

** I don't have access to the recipe builder, so I don't know if using regular biscuits would add a point or not. The person I got this from didn't say they used reduced fat biscuits, so I don't know. I went ahead and added a pt just to be safe. So for me, I said 4 pt/muffin, instead of 3.**
** Side note: Be careful when you use bbq sauce. Its not all the same. I had some where 2 tbsp was 110 calories!! I checked a different brand I had and it ws only 40 calories for 2 tbsp, so checking NI on labels is very important!!**

Sunday, April 5, 2009

3 Make-Up Recipes

Alrighty folks, so here they are. My three recipes that I owe you!

Hearty Shepherd's Pie

1 and 3/4 pounds baking potatoes, peeled and cut into 1-inch pieces
2/3 cup fat free milk
1 tbsp unsalted butter
1 tsp salt
1/2 tsp ground black pepper
1 pound ground lean beef (5 % fat or less)
1 onion, chopped
4 garlic cloves, minced
1 teaspoon dried oregano
1/2 cup dry red wine
2 tbsp tomato paste
1 (10 ounce) package frozen peas and carrots
1 cup reduced sodium beef broth

1. Preheat the oven to 350. Spray a 2-quart baking dish with nonstick spray. To make the topping, place the potatoes in a large pot with enough cold water to cover; bring to a boil. Cook until the potatoes are fork-tender, 10-12 minutes. Drain; return to the pot. Add the milk, butter, 1/2 tsp of the salt; and 1/8 tsp of the pepper; mash and set aside.

2. To make the filling, heat a large nonstick skillet over medium high heat. Add the beef, breaking it apart with a spoon, and cook until browned, about 5 minutes. Transfer to a bowl. Return the skillet to the heat. Add the onion, garlic, and oregano; cook, stirring, until the onion is lighly browned. Add the wine and tomato paste; cook, stirring occasionally, until the mixture is slightly thickened. Add the peas and carrots; cook, stirring occasionally, until the vegetables thaw. Stir in the broth and cook until the mixture is slightly thickened. Stir in the beef and the remaining 1/2 tsp of salt and 1/8 tsp of pepper.

3. Transfer the filling to the baking dish. Spread the potato topping over the filling and bake until the filling is bubbly around the edges, about 20 minutes. Remove the pie from the over. Increase the oven temperature to broil and broil the pie, 5 inches from the heat, until the topping is lightly browned, 1-2 minutes. Let stand 5 minutes before serving.

Serves: 6
Pts per serving: 5 (1 and 1/3 cups per serving)
**This recipe is an actual WW recipe, so the point info should be correct. Also, I have never put red wine in my meal when I make it, and it still turns out fine.**

Salsbury Steak

1 and 1/2 pound extra lean ground beef
1/2 cup dry bread crumbs
1/4 cup chopped onion
1 egg, slightly beaten
1 regular sized can of Fat Free Cream of Mushroom soup
1/3 cup water

Mix throughly beef, bread crumbs, onion, and egg; shape firmly into 6 patties. In large skillet, brown patties; pour off fat (shouldn't be much fat). Blend soup and water. Pour over patties in skillet. Cover; cook over low heat 20 minutes or until done. Serving is one patty and about 1/4 cup of gravy.

Pts per serving: 6
**Not an actual WW recipe, so you might want to check yourself, if you can**

Blackened Catfish

2 tbsp paprika
1 tbsp oregano
1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp pepper
1/4 tsp red pepper
4 (6 oz) catfish fillets
2 tsp olive oil

Combine first 5 ingredients in a small bowl. Sprinkle both sides of the fish with the paprika mixture. Heat oil in a large skillet over high heat. Add fish; cook 4 minutes on each side, or until fish flakes easily with a fork.

Serving: 1 6-oz fillet
Pts per serving: 5
**Not an actual WW recipe, but the person I got it from is pretty reliable, so check if you want to. I used tilapia on this recipe b/c I didn't have catfish at the time, and it wasn't so great. It was too much of a fishy flavor. I am going to try it again with catfish, and I'm sure it will be much better.**

Okay, folks, so there is the recipes. Hope you enjoy at least one or two of them :)

April 5, 2009.....Not Quite There Yet...But So Close!

Alright, so I had had high hopes this week for weighing in. If I lost 3 lbs, then it would put me at the 30 lb weight loss mark. I was going to "fall off the wagon," so to speak, on purpose, and go eat Chinese food. Chinese food is the one thing I miss being on WW. I know that there are healthy options at Chinese restaurants, but if I went, I wouldn't want to be healthy, so it has been best to avoid that temptation :)

However, I wasn't sure how good I would do since I've had good weight losses the past couple of weeks. Plus, I still haven't gotten in my exercise mode...I still haven't recovered completely from being sick. Not that that's really a good excuse, but I did try to go walking one day, and my chest hurt so bad, I barely got home. I had to stop for a few minutes and take a breather.

Okay, so back to the story finally...I got on the scale on Saturday morning, and lost.................1 lb. Not the 3 lbs I needed, but I am happy with 1 lb, since I have all the conditions listed above. I just gotta keep reaching for that 30 lb mark a little longer :)

And as I mentioned up above, my sickness hasn't left me completely. I am still coughing, but not nearly as much, which I am so thankful for. I really don't even have to take cough syrup any more. However, now, my sinuses are acting up. The pollen around here is killing me..ggrrr...I haven't been able to taste anything since Wednesday night. Which makes me very sad, because Thursday I bought some Skinny Cow ice cream that I've never had before (it looks DELICIOUS!!) but I haven't tried it b/c I can't taste it. Every time I open my freezer, it's there, just staring at me...sigh...just today I have started getting my tastes back, not completely, but it gives me hope...LOL. Last night we went to my mom's to eat, and I totally went off points anyway, even though I couldn't really taste it...hehehe. We had fried catfish and fried french fries. Sigh...I could catch a glimpse every now and again of taste, and it was SO good. I don't feel at all guilty for eating it. That's the first time in a little over 2 months that I have had an unhealthy meal. I think I deserve it. However, now even if I lose 2 lbs this week, to bring it up to 30 lbs, I still won't be able to have Chinese cuz Easter Sunday is this weekend, and that is definitely not gonna be a good, healthy day for me LOL. I already admit that freely and fully. I am gonna try not to get too crazy on eating, but I know I am gonna have one or two good desserts. The good thing is, my weigh in day is Saturday and Easter is on Sunday, so I will have almost all week to recuperate and get the weight off. I am still hopeful I am gonna lose 2 lbs this week, even though I ate the fish. I am gonna start walking again, and doing my arm exercises, even if I fall over.

Oh, I received my first issue of the Weight Watchers magazine, and I really like it. It has a LOT of recipes in it. I don't know if I will ever use most of them, but their still nice to have. I wish the magazine would come every month, but its every two months. I will deal with that.

Well, I think my long post today will make up for last week's not so great post. I also have 3 recipes to make up for. I will follow this blog with another one with the three recipes on it.

Starting weight: 233 lbs
Current weight: 205.8 lbs

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Saturday March 28th 2009....Back Again :)

Okay, so I'm back again. Its been a couple of weeks since I last wrote. I have been sick :( I'm better now, but I have a horrible cough; I have self-diagnosed myself with bronchitis. Hopefully, I'll get over it soon. Last week, it was something else, I had a fever and felt like poo. Now it's just the coughing.

Okay, so last week I lost 2 lbs, and I got on the scale this morning, and it said 5 more lbs gone!! I almost have a hard time believing I lost 5 lbs this week, and I mean that. I mean, by now, I am expecting a 1-2 lb weight loss every week, not 5!! I was very shocked. I even got on the scale 2 different times and it was the same number every time, so I guess I'll accept it LOL.

My husband has lost about 42 lbs altogether. He is looking mighty sexy these days!! Hehehehe!! I am very proud of him. He's working very hard on getting healthy. I call him my skinny man :)

Well, this is gonna be a short one today. I have somewhere to be in about 45 minutes, so I don't have time to write some recipes right now. I will be be back later to do that. I will try to put two on here, since I skipped last week.

Starting Weight: 233 lbs
Current Weight: 206.8 lbs

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Saturday March 14th...20 lbs Gone!!

Gggooo me!! So last week I only lost .2 oz, which disappointed me. It didn't affect me too much, though, cuz I did gain a pound one week a few weeks ago, so losing anything is good. I just have to remind my brain of that sometimes. Back to the story...this week I didn't think I was gonna do good again, cuz it didn't "feel" like I've lost anything. So, imagine my surprise when the scale showed a 5 lb weight loss!! I was so excited. I know it will not be like that every week, and I am prepared for that. I am actually surprised that it was 5 lb; I have been doing WW for a couple of months now, so I am only expecting 1-2 lbs per week. Therefore, next week, if I get on the scale and it shows a very little weight loss to staying the same, or even gaining a few ounces, I will be okay with that. The scale is only one indication of a healthy lifestyle. I feel better about myself, and I know my body appreciates what I'm doing.

I tried on some size 16 jeans earlier, that I haven't been able to wear in quite some time. They fit! Well, let me rephrase that; they fit but I won't be wearing them any time soon. I had to lay on the bed to zip them up...LOL. However, I could wear them out somewhere without being too uncomfortable. I think I'll wait til I can wear them without having my gut hanging over them. It is encouraging, though, to know that in another 10 lbs or so, I'll be able to fit them even better. It's kinda hard right now cuz my pants are actually getting too big for me (Woo!!) but I'm not small enough yet to fit in the next size down. I need to invest in a belt, but I hate wearing might turn into a necessary evil :)

I drank a whole gallon of water yesterday! I thought I was gonna was so hard. By the last bottle, I was almost crying every time I took a drink (not really, but it was difficult). I know I need to drink that much all the time, but me and water have a love/hate relationship LOL. I was running to the bathroom every 20 minutes, or sooner, seriously! Ugh...why can't water taste good?? There was one woman who posted on the WW message boards that had drank 169 oz in one day!! Just because she liked it!! There is no way I will ever be able to drink that much.

My boss and I went to a workshop on Thursday and went out to eat at the Dixie Cafe. I was so proud of myself. I ordered grilled chicken, pinto beans, and corn (didn't eat all the corn). They brought some delicious cornbread to the table and I only ate half a piece. It was delicious and I didn't feel guilty about eating there. Next week, Charles and I are going out for our 9 year anniversary, and I am looking forward to eating out then.

Our home visit from DHS went well. The lady came, and talked for about an hour, and fingerprinted us. I told her I felt like I was on CSI...LOL. Everything is on track for us to becoming foster parents. It will prolly still be about 3 months. We have to wait at least a month for the classes to start, and the classes are 9 week weeks, so I am shooting for summer time. She said we could get a call as soon as the same day or the next day for a child to be placed with us, after they put on the list of foster parents. That is kind of exciting for us, but sad at the same time, that there are so many kids that have to be taken out of homes :( We have already started gathering up beds and other "kid" stuff that we will need.

The grocery store in the town where I work at had boneless, skinless chicken breasts on sale last week, and I bought a few packs. Then, my friend, whom I work with at the preschool bought me 5 packages!! So I am now set on chicken for awhile. And I really really appreciate Tysha helping me out. She is a good friend!! I have been really aware of my sodium intake this past week. I am trying to do better on how much I have everyday. I probably still go over what I should, but definately not what I used to have. I did cheat today and eat 2 very small frozen pizzas...hehehe. It was my celebration for losing weight this week, and hitting my 20 lb mark. They are like 9 pts each, but I didn't eat breakfast, so won't set me back too much. Tonight for supper is homemade beanie weinies, and its only 3 pts a cup, so I should still be okay. I hope there good; I love beinie weinies!! Well that's all for this week. I'll be back again next week to see how it goes.

Starting weight: 233 lb
Current weight: 213.8 lb

My recipe this week is another breakfast item. This came from a website other than WW, so remember to check it yourself for accuracy.

Gooey Cinnamon Rolls

10 Pillsbury Buttermilk Biscuits
1 cup mini marshmallows
1 and 1/2 tsp cinnamon
1/4 cup Splenda

Preheat oven to 400. Spray muffin tin with butter flavored cooking spray. Flatten each biscuit into a 4" circle. Combine Splenda and cinnamon. Dip each biscuit into the mixture. Place 4 marchmallows in the center of each biscuit. Bring edges up to form a ball. Place each in a prepared muffin cup, seam side down. Bake 8-10 minutes.

1 roll=1 pt
2 rolls=3 pts
3 rolls=4 pts
4 rolls=6 pts

I had a hard time keeping the marshmallows from melting out of the biscuits. I didn't seal them very well I guess, and I can't really figure out how to remedy that. I'll have to work on it. These are really good, though, and are a small point breakfast item. Good for on the go times, if you fix them ahead of time.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

March 7, 2009....not a great week....

Hello all:

Back once again for another week...and not a great week, I might add. I didn't even lose a pound this week. I lost .2 oz :( It's better than the week I gained, but definately not what I hoped for. I was hoping to lose 3 lbs week and next, to bring my weight loss up to 20 lbs......well, not gonna happen now. I don't know why there was no loss this week...was it just one of those weeks or is it because of my PCOS? That is what I am actually afraid of, that I'm gonna stall on losing b/c of PCOS. I don't know what to do about it. If I don't lose anything for a few weeks, then I'm thinkin about calling my doctor to see about getting on Metformin to see if that helps anything. I hope it doesn't come down to that though. I'd really like to lose on my own, with no help. I didn't walk quite as much as I could have this week, so that might have been a factor, as well. I did add a few more exercises in, for my arms and I'm doing some crunches for my abs. I think about that too, how I am kind of limited on what I can do for exercise. There is no gym anywhere around here, and we couldn't afford it anyway. And since I'm not a exercise expert, I don't know a whole lot of exercises that I can do on my own. I thought about buying some workout dvd's but I don't really know when I could do them, unless I get up extra early in the morning. That doesn't thrill my heart either...if you know me, you know I am not a morning person LOL. I might have to try it though if that's what it comes down to.

So, anywho, we are getting our visit from the DHS lady today. She is coming to do our home visit today, which is the next step in our becoming a foster parent. I am just glad she is finally coming. We started this process almost two months ago. Of course, after the home visit, if all goes well, we will have to go to classes for 9 weeks, once a week. I don't even know when those start so it might be another month before we get started...sigh...oh well, what is that saying, "The best things come to those who wait." LOL...hopefully that is true with us :)

Starting Weight: 233 lb
Current Weight: 218.8 lb

Okay, so not much to talk about. I am leaving you with my recipe for the week. It's an honest to goodness WW recipe, came from the Pure Comfort cookbook. Oh, and the stuffed pork chops last week? They were decent, but I should have put more spices on the meat. The stuffing was good though. Back to topic: this week is buttermilk corn cakes. They taste exactly like pancakes, but better. And I didn't have to slather butter on each pancake to make them sweet. It was great!! Here ya go!!

Buttermilk Corn Cakes

1 cup all-purpose flour
1/2 cup cornmeal
2 tbsp sugar (I used Splenda instead, don't think it would help the point count though)
1 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp baking soda
1/8 tsp salt
1 and 1/4 cups low fat buttermilk
1 large egg; slightly beaten
3 teaspoons unsalted butter
1/4 cup warm maple syrup

1. Combine the flour, cornmeal, sugar, baking powder, baking soda, and salt in a large bowl. Combine the buttermilk and egg in another bowl. Add the buttermilk mixture to the flour mixture, stirring until just blended.
2. Melt 1 teaspoon of the butter in a large nonstick skillet over medium heat. Pour the batter by 1/4 cupfuls onto the skillet. Cook just until bubbles begin to appear at the edges of the corn cakes, about 2 minutes. Flip and cook until golden, about 2 minutes longer. Repeat with the remaining butter and batter, making a total of 12 corn cakes. Serve at once with the maple syrup.

Serving: 3 corn cakes with 1 tablespoon syrup
Points per serving: 7

**Note: I used some sugar free syrup instead of maple syrup. It's only 1 pt per 1/4 cup. I don't know if that made a difference with the points. I am hoping it didn't.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

February 28, 2008....Goodbye 220's!!

I lost 3 lbs this week. I am happy with that. It just seems like a slow process. I know, I took along time for me to get this weight, so it is going to take a long time to get it off. However, it seems to be taking alot longer to take it off then how long it took me to gain it. It doesn't seem to take much for me to gain weight LOL. However, I will definately take a 3 lb loss. Much better then the 1 lb I gained a couple of weeks ago. I tried the exercises I talked about last week, and some of them killed my leg muscles!! Seriously, I could hardly walk for 2-3 days. I do need to start doing more exercising. Walking won't cut it forever. I should be doing some crunches or something. I don't really have an excuse not to. I would have to go into the bedroom or something, though, and lock the door cuz I don't want Charles watching me. It makes me feel stupid haha.

I can't really notice a different on my appearance yet, and I'm not just saying that to get some pity. I really haven't noticed. That kinda disappoints me. I have lost 14 lbs altogether, so hopefully by the time I have lost about 20 lbs I can tell. I am really looking forward to that 20 lb weight loss mark. If I stay on my current schedule, it should take me about....2-3 more weeks. I can definately handle that.

We went grocery shopping this week, and I didn't spend nearly as much as before!! Go me! I also got a new cookbook, Pure Comfort, by Weight Watchers. It has some pretty good recipes in it that I will be trying out over the next 2 weeks. I also started putting a little money into our savings account, and I do mean a little. I am putting $10 in every time one of us gets paid. It's not much, but I am hoping it will really add up over the months. Eventually I am also hoping to add more than that if we can pay off a couple of credit cards. So, here is a tip for anyone reading: save whatever you can, even if it's just five dollars a month. It's better to have a little in savings, then none at all.

Charles and I finally heard from the DHS worker. We are trying to become foster parents!! It took forever for them to get our background checks back, but they did, and the caseworker is coming to the house next Saturday to do a home visit. She will look around the house and explain the whole process to us a little more and ask us some questions. I am looking forward to it. We want no more than 2 foster children at a time. Our house is pretty small, and I don't want to stuff the house full with no room for anyone to enjoy. After the visit, if everything goes well, we have to go to classes for 9 weeks. That will be not so fun, but it's necessary, so I'll endure it LOL.

Oh, I forgot to add last week that I had to move down to 26 pts a day on my WW plan. Whew...and it has made a difference. I am being extra careful with my points now. I am already dreading it when I have to move down again...well, not dreading cuz that means I would be under 200 lbs when I have to move down again, but it will be an adjustment. Let me add that I hate veggies so it makes it harder for me. I pretty much like white potatoes, green beans, pinto beans, blackeyed peas, purple hull peas, and corn. Sigh..not much to choose from is it? Oh, and I do like sauerkraut. If I liked more veggies it would not be so difficult to stay within my point range. Maybe I should just suck it up and choke them down anyway..hhmm...bears some thought :)

Starting Weight: 233 lbs
Current Weight: 219 lbs

Okay, well, I'll leave off with my recipe for the week. I have to go cook supper. I'm trying a recipe from the new cookbook, Herb Stuffed Potatoes. I'll let you know how it turns out. Remember, the point values I post for things might not always be correct. I get my info from other sources, unless it comes straight from the WW website; if it does, then I'll tell you.

Baked Chimichangas

8 oz. extra lean ground beef
1/2 c. chopped onion
1 c. salsa
1 tsp chili seasoning (you can add more for taste, I think I put about 2-3 tsp)
4 6-inch flour tortillas ( I found some at Walmart that was 0 pts for one; La Tortilla High Fiber something or other...can't remember the exact name...sorry)
You can add other vegetables if so desired...bell pepper, etc.

1. Preheat oven to 350. Spray a 9x13 dish with non-stick cooking spray. In a large skillet, brown meat and onion.
2. Stir in 1/2 c. salsa and chili seasoning. Lower heat and simmer for 5 minutes. Spoon 1/4 c. meat mixture into center of each tortilla. Roll up like a burrito (I had to go online to see how to properly roll them LOL).
3. Bake until the tortilla is brown. Top with the remaining salsa.

Serving size: 2 chimichangas
Points/serving: 6 (could be less if you use the 0-pt tortilla. I don't have a way to check)

Saturday, February 21, 2009

February 21, 2008: Much Much Better :)

Ahhh...much better weigh in this week....according to the scales, I am down another 5 lbs from last week!! Woo!! That made me very happy. Good ole hubby lost another 6 lbs...sorry sucker. Oh well, I will definately take my 5 lbs :)

So, I am pretty sure my eating is getting better. I didn't have as many "I want to eat everything I see" days. I had quite a few of those the week before. I didn't actually give in to that urge, I just felt like it LOL. I bought a new cookbook, Pure Comfort. Its a WW cookbook. I haven't actually gotten it yet, but I hope to early next week. I paid $30 for the thing, so I better like it. Who would have thought that I would pay that much for a cookbook? However, it has more "Southern" type recipes in it, so I think I will really like it. I am even excited to get it, and I am ready to start planning my next menu!! Oh...back to eating...anyway, I have noticed that I am getting full with the portions I am getting, which is much smaller then what we used to eat. That is a good thing. I also bought a food scale, so I am able to weigh the food better. Funny story: Charles and I went to eat at Applebee's last Sunday. They have WW food items on their menu. Anyway, we ordered a steak, potatoes, and steamed vegetables, it was a 7 pt meal. Hahahaha, then when they actually brought the food to the table, I thought we were gonna have to bring out a magnifiying glass to find the steak (it was a 4-ounce steak). There were two chunks of boiled potatoes, maybe a fourth of a regular sized potato, and a butt load of steamed BROCCOLI. I detest broccoli with a passion. Charles looked so sad when he saw the steak...hehehe...however, what there was of it was very good. I would take a bite of steak and a bite of broccoli stalk to disguise the broccoli taste. The surprising thing was, though, is that I was actually full when we got done eating, even though there definately wasn't that much to eat; we used to order appetizers that had more to them then our WW meal. Just goes to show you that you don't need a heaping plate of food to be satisfied :)

I am trying to up my water intake. Anybody in my immediate family can tell you that I absolutely, positively, without a doubt HATE water. Now, this is a big problem since an important step to weight loss is drinking lots of water. So, I am trying to get better at him...sigh...not easy at all. Yesterday, I drank SEVEN glasses of water. I knew today was Weigh Day, and I wanted to flush all the sodium and whatnot out of my system beforehand. Of course, I had to run to the bathroom every 10 minutes, but I didn't die from water overdose. I can actually go all day without drinking anything at all, even before I started dieting. I don't even have to have anything to drink when I am eating a meal. So, drinking water water water is a big hurdle that I am trying to jump over. Another girl I know told me this last week "Oh after the first week of drinking water, you'll love it and won't want to drink anything else."Huh??....I was like "No, no. Not that way with me at all." LOL. I am pretty sure me and water will never be friends.

I haven't really noticed my clothes fitting any different yet, which is kind of disappointing. Hopefully that little reward will start showing up soon. I am ready for my clothes to fit better, without me looking like a lumpy potatoe in them...haha. I am still walking, and it's getting quite boring. I do prefer walking outside as compared to a treadmill. Walking, in general, though, is boring. I have some exercise pamphlets in my WW stuff that my sister gave me that works your arms, legs, and abdomen. I might try some of those this week, especially the arms and abdomen. I hate my fat arms. I want to wear tank tops and not be self-conscious about it. So, we'll see how it goes.

We had to go to Nashville today to get some new tires for the Blazer. Nashville has a McDonald's.....Oh my Lord!! I soooo almost had Charles whip in there to get my some fries. McDonalds french fries are my definate weakness. I even trying to talk myself into it by telling myself it could be my reward for losing weight this week...however, I resisted. I didn't ask. Charles would have fussed at me and made me feel guilty for even asking. Sometimes he makes me feel like a little kid if he thinks I am eating something I shouldn't. I usually get mad and ignore him but I didn't feel like getting into it today with him. Plus, I have been doing good on avoiding "trigger" foods and I didn't want to get my brain to thinking bad thoughts about food. I will wait awhile longer when I am a little stronger in my food defenses (and when Charles isn't with me...hehehe).

Starting Weight: 233 lbs
Current Weight: 222 lbs

Okay, so to wrap it up, I'll leave you my recipe for the week. I had to debate on which one to pick. I made some good recipes this week. I will put the Crockpot Cheesy Chicken Spaghetti recipe on here this week though. My sister made this after I told her about the recipe, and it is really good. I do want to put in a word of caution: I post points per serving on here, but I don't know if the points are accurate sometimes. Some of my recipes come from other websites that have WW recipes, and I just trust they are correct. I don't have access to the Recipe Builder so you might want to check at your time. The fudge recipe I posted last week was right because it came from the actual WW website. I go there regularly. Okay, 5 hours later, here it is:

Crockpot Cheesy Chicken Spaghetti

16 0z cooked spaghetti (didn't specify wheat or regular, my sister used regular)
1 lb light Velveeta
12.5 oz can chicken breast, drained and flaked
1 can Fat Free cream of mushroom soup
1 can Fat Free cream of chicken soup
1 can Rotel
1/2 cup water

Spray slow cooker with non-stick cooking spray. Combine all ingredients in slow cooker and stir. Cook on low for 2-3 hours.

Points: 6 pts/ cup (If you have a way to check, you might try switching the regular noodles with wheat noodles, it might lower it a point, but I'm not sure on that)

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Saturday, February 14th...What a bummer! what a crappy day today. I got on the scale, just KNOWING I was going to lose at least a couple of pounds from last week and what do I see?? 227!! What? Are you kidding me?? How the heck did I gain a pound in a week? I have done everything right, didn't cheat, and didn't even use my extra 35 Flex points. I walked everyday this week except Monday (raining), and yesterday (had to get to the bank before it closed). So now I'm just disgusted and disappointed. I really thought I had lost a pound or two this week. Charles was like "Maybe you gained muscle from walking".................yea right. Somehow I doubt I gained a pound of muscle from walking barely a mile a day for 5 days. This has been a bad week for me anyway...I've had to stop myself from overeating a few days, even though I wasn't hungry at all. And we went grocery shopping last night, and spent almost $200 on groceries. Now that is for two weeks, so to some of you it may not seem like alot of money, but it is for me. I am used to spending around $150. Sigh...why does trying to be healthy have to be stinkin expensive??? You would think things would be cheaper so that average people who are trying to be healthy could afford to buy stuff.

But I was so hoping to report that I was going to have to move down to 26 pts a day, instead of the 28 pts I am at now. I really thought I was doing good. I can even almost see my belly button without having to move some fat around...hahahaha. And I tried on a shirt that didn't really fit that well before and I think I am only about 5-7 lbs from being able to wear it and not look like a pathetic fatty that is trying to be sexy.

However, I am not giving up (yet). Charles seems to think I will give up soon, and I have to admit, with it only being my second week and gaining a pound from last week is HIGHLY discouraging, but I will keep on keeping on for now. I mean, I've already bought healthy food for two weeks :) Not to mention I am not a quitter, at least not so easily. Of course, its easy for Charles to say "don't quit...blah blah blah...." cuz he lost another 6 lbs at his weigh in on Monday, and he is on track to do it again this week. So.....I guess I will report in next week with hopefully better news. I am hoping it will be kinda like the Biggest Loser. When they don't have a good weight loss one week, then the next week it is usually better.

Starting Weight:233
Current Weight: 227

Okay, so my recipe of the week is one I just got off of the WW website yesterday. I was gonna do some kind of supper/lunch dish, but with today being Valentine's Day, I figured I'd get in the mood and post a chocolate fudge recipe in case any of you wanna make chocolate for your hunny bunny. It's good chocolate; I've already made some today for the Valentine Banquet we are doing tonight at church, which is done by the youth group that me and Charles are leaders of. Enjoy and see ya next week!!!

Chocolate Marshmallow Fudge

1 spray(s) cooking spray
1 and 2/3 cups sugar
2/3 cup fat free evaporated milk
2 tbsp reduced calorie margarine, or light butter
12 oz. semisweet chocolate, chopped (about 1 & 1/2 cups)
14 large marshmallows


Coat an 8 x 8 inch pan with cooking spray (I didn't have one so I used a cake pan, it makes it a little thinner pieces).

In a medium saucepan, stir together sugar, evaporated milk and margarine/butter; bring to a boil over high heat. Reduce heat to medium-low and cook, stirring constantly, about 3 minutes.

Stir in chocolate and marshmallows; remove pan from heat and stir until smooth.

Pour mixture into prepared pan and refridgerate until firm; about 2 hours. Cut into thirty-six 1 1/3-inch squares and serve. Yields 1 piece per serving.

Points: 2 pts per one piece

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Saturday February 7th

Here I am...once again, a week later. This might actually be kinda fun, since I only am writing once a week maybe I won't get tired of it.

We bought some new scales this week, from Wal-Mart. When I weighed on them, I realized that the new scales and the old scales had about a 3 lb difference, with the new scales being less. So, I guess I should say my starting weight was 233 lbs, not 236. I gave the old scales to my mom. Hopefully the new scales are a little more correct. That is one reason I wish I could go to meetings; the scales there are probably the most accurate ones, but I'll survive.

Charles weighed in on Monday; he had lost 9 lbs (sorry sucker!!). I am glad for him though. I weighed in this morning. I will tell you my new weight in a few minutes. First, let me talk about this...I got on the scales on Wednesday night just to see what it said (I still had the old scales at this point, mind you). It showed my weight still being what it was last Saturday, 236. So I was quite discouraged. I know, I was bad of me to get on the scale, but I did it anyway. make a long story short, when I got on the new scales this morning, I was pleasantly surprised. I have weighed myself two or three times this morning to make sure it was accurate every time. My new weight is........................226 lb!! That means I lost 7 lbs last week!!! Woooo!!!! Very exciting. Now this is of course with the new scales. Please Lord let them be accurate.

I have also realized, however, that I am going to be having to move down to 26 pts a day on the Flex plan once I get to 224 lbs. Right now I am eating 28 pts a day. So, whew, it's gonna be a little change but one I will take if it means I am losing that weight. One reason I was so shocked this morning is b/c I have PCOS (Polycycstic Ovarian Syndrome). One side effect of this is being hard to lose weight. I realize that I won't be losing 7 lbs every week, but I am just glad to be off to a good start. From now on, even if I just lose 1-2 lbs a week, I will be happy. I also started walking this week, 1 mile a day. We skipped Thursday, hehehe. I have shin splints, pretty bad, so I have to be careful how far I walk. I am prolly walking further then I should b/c before I get home, my shins hurt SO bad, but I'm not a weinie so I push through. Hopefully soon I can bump it up to about 1 and a half miles, and then onward from there.

I have usually plan my menus for two weeks at a time, b/c we go grocery shopping every two weeks. But I have already started my new menu and we won't even go shopping again until next Friday, Feb 13. Why, you ask? I have been looking up all kinds of WW recipes and I bought a WW cookbook from ebay. It has a few good recipes in it. I am excited to try all this new HEALTHY food. So, from now on, every week, I am going to post a new recipe on here that we have tried. This week it is gonna be Chipper Banana Muffins. I made them them morning...and they were okay, kinda bland. You can probably think of a way to pep them up or lower the points even more, but I had never made muffins from scratch so I was pretty proud of myself for not screwing them up. Okay, that's all for now...still here, and still not starving. I am already ready for next week...hopefully I will be able to tell you that I am having to step my daily points down :)

Holly's Starting Weight: 233 lbs
Holly's Current Weight: 226 lbs
Weight Lost: 7 lbs

Chipper Banana Muffins

2 and 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
1 and 1/2 teaspoons double-acting baking powder
1 and 1/2 teaspoons baking soda
1/2 cup sugar
1/2 cup unsweetened applesauce
2 eggs
1/3 cup canola oil
2 very ripe bananas, mashed
1/2 cup skim buttermilk
1/4 cup semisweet chocolate chips

1. Preheat the oven to 350 degrees. Line 18 muffin cups with paper liners.
2. In a medium bowl, combine the flour, baking powder, and baking soda.
3. In a large bowl, with an electric mixer at medium speed, beat the sugar, applesauce, eggs, and oil until frothy. With the mixture at low speed, alternately add the bananas and buttermilk with the flour mixture; stir until just combined ( do not overmix). Fold in the chocolate chips.
4. Spoon the batter into the cups, filling each about two-thirds full. Bake until golden and a toothpick inserted in the center comes out clean, 20-25 minutes.

Per serving: 150 calories, 5 g Total Fat, 1 g Saturated Fat, 24 mg Cholesterol, 161 mg Sodium, 23 g Total Carbohydrate, 1 g Dietary Fiber, 3 g Protein, 38 mg Calcium

Points per muffin: 3

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Losing Weight...a long road to walk down....

Well, here I am back again. For awhile, I thought about deactivating my account on here. It was another one of those things which I thought was a good idea, but then it got old, like alot of other hobbies I try to pick up :)

But, as Charles and I are trying to lose weight, I thought "Hhmm...why not blog about that?" Course, nobody might read this any more then they have been, but it'll give me somewhere to vent when I want to eat...haha. And actually, this came up because my sister, Dana, is doing LA Weight Loss, and blogging about it as well on here, so I guess it's kind of a motivational thing. Even my mom is cutting back. She isn't saying diet, but cutting back. So maybe somebody will read this that can get something out of it. I am prolly only gonna right about once a week, after I weigh myself. So now for some background info....

Tomorrow will be a week that Charles and I have been changing our eating habits. I won't say "diet" either. All the weight loss people avoid that word, and say instead "It's not a diet, it's a lifestyle" so I guess that should be my motto as well. We are trying to follow Weight Watchers. I have never been to any meetings. I'd like to to, but: 1. There is no meetings around here; 2. I couldn't afford it. So, I got the Weight Watchers books from my sister from when she did WW, so we are just trying our best to stick to that. I've tried to do WW before, but I stopped after a few days. It is very hard to stay motivated, as I am sure any body who has tried to lose weight can tell you.

So far, we are doing good. I am gonna start walking this week. It is a pain in the butt to write down what I eat and keep track of points, but I am sticking with it. I am realizing how often I stuffed my face when I didn't really need to. I have been eating less, of course, and I'm not starving. Of course, alot of times I'd like to have more, but I think that is just because I am used to cramming food down my throat. And guess, what? I'm still here...I ain't starving, so I know I CAN do it; it's just a matter of WANTING to do it. I do want to lose weight, it's just alot easier to eat whatever I want. I went to Wal-Mart last week, and all that tempting food. I was strong and walked out of there with no junk food!! That's a big step for me, since I usually get at least one thing, junk food wise, if not more.

And right now, I am semi-excited about losing weight. I have been planning menus and looking up WW recipes (and found lots of good ones). I know it is gonna be a long road, though, cuz I'd like to lose about 80 lbs. Sigh...just lookin at that number can be discouraging, but I have to make myself realize that I let myself get to the weight I am, so it's up to me to get it off. So, I am coming to the end for this week. If anyone has any good tips with WW, let me know. I'll take all the help I can get!! Oh, and I am gonna post my weight on here, which is a huge thing for me. Pretty much the only person besides myself who knows my weight is Charles. I figure, though, if I put it on here, then that will make me more accountable to losing weight...hahaha.

Okay....(breathing deep) starting weight is........236 lb, as of Saturday morning. I will be weight again next Saturday, and I'll let you know my (hopefully) progress. I should be weighing tomorrow actually but I kept forgetting to do it until Saturday so that is the weight I am saying is my beginning.

Love you all and hope you have a blessed day!!